Why does it seem that no matter how hard I try it is never enough? I am constantly in a state of inadequecy. I was in this deep dark place, my own torturous hell for so long. I fought to see the light for years. I thought that just a glimpse would be enough so I would know that I’m not alone. Then one day this bright light appeared out of nowhere. It cut through the darkness and fog and brought light into my world. Now it seems like that light is flickering. I’m not ready to give it up! I’m not sure if the wind is trying to blow it out or if someone is trying to extinguish it. All I know is that I am going to fight to keep that light in my life. I don’t want to walk around in the dark again. I don’t want to feel like i’m not good enough. The feeling of being unwanted is almost unbearable. I have felt it so many times over my life. Now that I can see my life clearly I don’t want to put a blindfold back on. That is what my life felt like before you, my light, came into it. Please don’t extinguish my light!