I looked down these same railroad tracks a month ago and it was a much different scene… Now there is no trace except for my memories. I would rather not remember, but I can’t seem to forget. These memories they haunt me from not so long ago. This seems to be my pattern in this career that I’ve chosen. I see horrible things that I can’t forget. I’ll close my eyes and there they will be. Why can’t I erase them? I hope that one day when I look down these tracks I can see what you see and not see the past….

Oct 9 -

I looked down these same railroad tracks a month ago and it was a much different scene… Now there is no trace except for my memories. I would rather not remember, but I can’t seem to forget. These memories they haunt me from not so long ago. This seems to be my pattern in this career that I’ve chosen. I see horrible things that I can’t forget. I’ll close my eyes and there they will be. Why can’t I erase them? I hope that one day when I look down these tracks I can see what you see and not see the past….

This is going to be where I put down my thoughts, worries, concerns, likes, and dislikes. Basically things that I don't want to say outloud.